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Pleasing the Unpleasable :Part 1

In the beginning, things seemed to be going so great, like everything was falling into place, as if I was right where I'm supposed to be. Back then, my spouse couldn't keep his hands off of me. Constantly, he was embracing every piece of me that he could hold. He brought something out of me I haven't seen in a long time, simple happiness. He gave me a sense of security and for the first time, I trusted his every intentions without a doubt. Every moment our eyes would consensually meet, I had the sense of overwhelming love for him. I found myself making it a priority to make him happy and to never allow him to feel like he was anything other than perfect. For a short time, he made me feel the same. Then things started to change as we became more comfortable with each other. I started to notice very quickly that those feelings he had for me was nothing more then a complete first impression. I found myself constantly begging for his attention. Just one more time, I wanted so...

To My Son Who Is Graduating This Year

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It hit me This morning, while driving to work, it hit me hard. It hit me that you will be graduating in a couple months and that you will be moving on without me. I felt like I was having a mental breakdown due to the uncontrollable crying, anxiety and fear. Fear that you're not ready, fear that you won't know what to do in certain situations, fear that you won't call for help if you need it, and mainly fear that you no longer need me.  All this time, It was me I have a hard time letting you go, be on your own, and being that "Man" whom I will have spent 18 years preparing you to be. I thought this would be easy. I thought that I have prepared myself for this. All this time, I thought that you would be the one afraid of moving forward and that you wouldn't be ready just yet. I thought that you would be the one to break down and back out. However, I now realize that it's me who is afraid and just not ready. It's me who is breaking down and wan...

Pround To Be A Single (but not single) Mom

For many years in the past, I have lived the reality of being a single mom. Being a single mom consists of so much more than just putting a roof over your child's head, making sure there is food on the table and clothes on their backs.  It is also made up of having the ability balance discipline and love, punishments and praises, and, influence and guidance. As a single mom of a boy, this was not easy. I had to be the strong one when it came to discipline and the soft one when he was hurting. We all know that there is no guide to being a perfect parent. No matter how many books you read, or how many counseling sessions or parenting classes you take, all children are unique, one can't be predicted. Oh, and then there is that ever judging society. I don't care what any human says, society is very judgemental of single parents. You never fit-in quite like those mom's with the big houses, nice cars and especially the "I Have All The Time In The World" mom'...